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I Came to Worship You

Here’s a beautiful worship song from Terry MacAlmon – I Came to Worship You.

Get somewhere on your own, close your eyes, and then either join in or just listen. Let this song awaken a worship response in your heart and draw near to God as you do so. Worship has no time or distance; God is everywhere – you don’t need to be in a meeting to worship God even with recorded music like this! Let the Spirit rise in your heart as you worship Him. As Terry says in the worship, ‘Oh, just find Him as you sing…..’.

I came to worship You,
I came to sing Your praise,
I came to love You, Lord,
Your Holy name to raise,

Hallelujah, hallelujah,
Oh, how I worship You,
You are my Lord.

 

Darren’s Steam Engine

My friend Darren is a man after God’s Heart, and he’s also after Revival. Not just a small tent ‘revival’ like they do in the States, but a full-blown move of the Spirit in this day that will bring healing, blessing and righteousness to countless numbers of hurting people. He and I both want revival and, each in our own ways, we both work with God towards that end.

Yesterday, Darren shared a vision he was given while praying in the Moriah Chapel in Loughor, Wales, where the 1904 Welsh Revival began.

Here’s Darren’s post in full:

“I have something that I feel is very important to share with the Church…

“This morning as I was praying and soul-searching at the back pew in Moriah Chapel, God gave me a message in the form of an image in my head;-

“I saw an old steam train sitting on some tracks. It was not moving forward or backward but was just sitting there, unfulfilled in it’s purpose. Scattered in between the wooden sleepers that were supporting the rails were great weeds and the wheels of the train had rusted up and had probably also seized up too. It was clear that this train had not moved for a long time.

“The scene was then shifted and I was in the driver’s cabin of the train. I noticed that the water gauge indicated that there was no water in the reservoir. I then saw the door of the coal furnace open, revealing cold, long-burnt out coal. All of a sudden a shovel appeared out of nowhere and started to dig deeper and deeper into the coals, turning them over and over. I noticed that there were very dim ambers still barely alight right at the bottom of the pile and as the coal was being turned over and over, the ambers started to gradually heat up and ignite the cold coal. What seemed to be quite a long time went past but eventually the whole furnace was ablaze again. The heat was immense and the doors had to be slammed shut as the heat was unbearable.

“I then saw streams of water pour down from above and fill the reservoir until the needle on the gauge was indicating that it was full. Then the whistle blew louder than the loudest sound I have ever heard and thick black soot started to ascend until all was clear and clean steam was bellowing out of the chimney, to be seen for miles and miles.

“Then it happened! The rust fell off and the train broke free and start to slowly move forward. Then it picked up pace… faster and faster! Until it was speeding ahead at full speed, unstoppable! My heart was pounding.

“After seeing this, the Spirit spoke into my heart. He said that the coal furnace is the heart and the coals are the Word. He said that the Word needs to become a blazing fire within our hearts again. The water is Him. ‘What of the shovel Lord?’. His answer… prayer! For so long we have been thinking of ‘re-digging the wells’ in the sense of re-digging the ground but the reality is that we are re-digging the coals of the Word within our hearts!

“Then it hit me! His words… ‘The moment the water and the coal come together, the train will come alive! The water – the Spirit… and the coals – the Word… Wow, I’ve heard that before! Smith Wigglesworth prophesying in 1947. ‘When the Spirit and the Word come together…’ I always wondered what he meant! What a parable of revelation!

“Prayer is the key folks! Prayer is the key!! Turn over the coals of your heart! Use that God-given shovel! Pray that coal into a blazing furnace again and watch what happens when the Spirit ‘fills the reservoir’! Set your Bride alight again Lord for Jesus’ sake!”

Thanks Darren

Great is Your Love!

See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!” (1Jn3:1)

I love that word, ‘lavished’. It’s how children apply their Nutella spread to their toast – far too much of it, spread on far too thickly, falling off all over the place and it’s just yummy!

‘Slathered’ is another word we use for this type of thing.

And this is how Father God treats us with His love. He pours it on, slathers it on thick just like heavenly Nutella, and it just drips off of us. We are absolutely covered in the stuff. I think that few people have all that much idea of just how much Father God loves us; loves everybody for that matter. He’s just longing to pour out His love on everyone. And that means that He loves you; He loves you with a burning, fiery intensity, a fiercely jealous love that will never let you go; He will never let you stray out of His presence and He walks by your side every step of the way. He’s willing to give up everything just for you, as He showed at the Cross. No matter what you do, no matter what you have done and no matter what you will do, He will continue to love you just the same and He will never let you go. The Bible is full of this reassurance; that once you are in His hands then there is nothing, nobody nor anything in all creation that can separate you from His love (Romans 8:38-39) or take you from His hands (John 10:28) and, contrary to what the conditional salvation people believe, you can’t jump out of His hands either (Psalm 139:7-12). So not even you can separate yourself from His love. Because we are His children! That really is what we are! Can you imagine God being less loving than even the best earthly father? No, of course not. Nothing can separate you from Him, ever, ever, ever!1Jn3-1 TypedOne of the best things you can do with this Scripture is to think about it, soak in it, bask in it, take it in, live it out. We are the children of the Maker of everything! Now how’s that for lavishing love on us?

So here’s a lovely song that expresses this glorious truth. ‘Great is Your Love’, by Craig Musseau, from Mercy Music (Vineyard), 1989. Be blessed!

How great is the love
That You have given us
That we should be called
Your children

Great is Your love
Great is Your faithfulness
Great is Your gentle touch

 

I Just Want to Praise You

Previously, (here and here)* I’ve shared some vintage Vineyard worship songs because I believe that those early Vineyard songs carry an anointing like no others, for leading people into God’s Presence.

Well, here’s another: ‘I Just Want to Praise You’, by Arthur Tannous.

Let the song lift you into God’s Presence as you lift your heart towards Him.

Blessings!

I just want to praise You,
Lift my hands and say: “I love You.”,
You are everything to me,
And I exalt Your holy name on high.
 
I just want to praise You,
Lift my hands and say: “I love You.”,
You are everything to me,

And I exalt Your holy name,

I exalt Your holy name,
I exalt Your holy name on high.

*And two more Vineyard worship songs can be found on these blog pages: Precious Child and My Delight

 

We Will Dance

Today I want to share with you a song that’s about twenty years old, but it’s as timeless now as it was even then. It’s ‘We Will Dance‘, also known as ‘Sing a Song of Celebration‘. It speaks of the streets of the Heavenly City being paved with pure gold (Revelation 21:21), and that we will dance there, dance in freedom, dance for joy, dance with our Saviour! As I’ve said before on my blog, “It’s true. All of it.” – these amazing things that “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.” (1Cor 2:9 (NLT)) – these are things we will see with our own eyes and hear with our own ears, in just as much reality as the screen you are looking at now. The Book of Revelation is a strange book, written in an odd sort of coded language in the style of what is called an ‘Apocalypse’ (which is why some people refer to the ‘end of the world’ as the Apocalpyse). However, I firmly believe that some of it is actually written in clear English and is intended to be easy to understand; the parts of the book about the Heavenly City I personally think describe the City exactly as it will be like. I can’t imagine God telling untruths about what Heaven will be like, apocalyptic style or not!

So, what joy this brings to the believer, to know that these things will happen just as God said they would! Why not then anticipate some of that joy right now and listen to this song – join in if you like! – and let it remind you that these are things you will see for real in the future Kingdom! And because the Holy Spirit is given to you right now as a deposit, to guarantee that which is to come (Eph 1:14), and you feel His witness in your heart, you know it’s true. As good old Darth Vader said, “Search your feelings; you know it to be true!” and it’s the same with the witness of the Spirit. Here’s the song. We will dance! Hallelujah!

Sing a song of celebration, lift up a shout of praise
For the Bridegroom will come, the glorious One
And oh, we will look on His face
We’ll go to a much better place

Dance with all your might, lift up your hands and clap for joy
For the time’s drawing near when He will appear
And oh, we’ll stand by His side
A strong, pure, spotless bride

We will dance on the streets that are golden
The glorious bride and the great Son of Man
From every tongue and tribe and nation
We’ll join in the song of the Lamb

(David Ruis)

Singing Praise to Father!

I love worshipping Jesus. I love the feeling of being in His Presence in that amazing way that’s amplified so much more when in worship. I find myself singing the songs of the Spirit quite spontaneously; when worship music comes on, my hands just sometimes raise in the air in worship, of their own accord. My wonderful wife Fiona gave me this lovely Scripture from her favourite Bible translation, The Message – because she said it reminded her of me!:

“Don’t drink too much wine. That cheapens your life. Drink the Spirit of God, huge draughts of him. Sing hymns instead of drinking songs! Sing songs from your heart to Christ. Sing praises over everything, any excuse for a song to God the Father in the name of our Master, Jesus Christ.” (Eph 5:18-20 (Message))

(I love that – ‘Any excuse for a song….’ and that’s just so me….)

Now you know I don’t treat the Bible as a book of Rules. This isn’t telling me what to do and what not to do; rather, it’s kind-of validating what I do in worship. It tells me that what happens to me when my heart is stirred with worship is actually quite normal for someone who is filled up with the Spirit of God. Not that I need validating; but there we go. But that’s what it’s like – any excuse for a song. I find myself singing out loud with the overflow from my heart, and you can too. Wouldn’t you love to do that? Wouldn’t you love to be aware of God’s Presence as you worship just driving down the road? Worship Him in Spirit and Truth and that’s what happens. For “out of the overflow of the heart, the mouth speaks…” (Lk6:45)

Now, about 25 years ago, my dear friend Chris returned from Australia having experienced a real move of God in his life, and also bringing back some great songs from Christian City Church in Sydney, where they’d been worshipping out there in the Land of Oz. I remember at the party welcoming them back, the song ‘All Honour‘ came on, and Chris’s wife Dawn was standing next to me; it was lovely to see her eyes close and her hands raise spontaneously in worship……when the Spirit of God moves on a person, all kinds of things can happen. Weeping, uncontrollable laughter (that’s my particular thing), falling over, giddiness….the list goes on. So don’t be surprised when, in the worship clip I am about to share, at 2 minutes in one of the young men in the singing group is suddenly in floods of tears. That’s the Spirit at work. If you’re going to ask for the anointing to fall on you, this is the sort of thing that can happen!

Don’t be surprised either if He does it to you too, as you enter in to the worship. Here’s Ron Kenoly and the Hosanna Music worship band, doing ‘Anointing Fall on Me’ and ‘All Honor’ on the worship session entitled ‘Lift Him Up!’

Find Him as you sing……

Anointing, fall on me,
Anointing, fall on me;
Let the power of the Holy Ghost
Fall on me,
Anointing, fall on me.

Touch my hands, my mouth and my heart;
Fill my life, Lord, every part.
Let the power of the Holy Ghost
Fall on me,
Anointing, fall on me.

All honor
All glory
All power
To You

Holy Father we worship You
Precious Jesus our Saviour
Holy Spirit we wait on You
Holy Spirit we wait on You
Holy Spirit we wait on You
For fire

Jesus is Alive!

ron kenoly

Here’s a brilliantly uplifting praise/declaration song from the inimitable Ron Kenoly, from his 1994  Hosanna Music album ‘God is Able‘. Let this song minister to you the full power, joy and truth of Christ’s victory over sin and death, on the Cross and in His Resurrection.

Hallelujah! Jesus is Alive!

The Fear of the Lord

I’ve heard a lot lately about the ‘fear of the Lord’. Naturally, most people read this as meaning that we have to be terrified of Him; like we’re all miserable sinners good for nothing but thunderbolt fodder (hence my ‘wrathful’ header picture of clouds and lightning!). But naturally I disagree with this entirely. God doesn’t want us to perceive Him like this at all!

The problem with using the word ‘fear’ in relation to God in this context is that, even in modern translations of the Bible, it’s actually an archaic word in its original use, which has for some reason been retained in more modern translations. So of course its modern use does not reflect the way in which people originally used the word. A more healthy term would be ‘respect’ or ‘reverence’, or even, in some cases, ‘worship’. Of course, people who use the term ‘fear’ out of its historical context have managed to use it to instil real fear into the people they are supposed to be pastoring. Like in this ‘demotivational’ slogan I saw recently:

scariest truths god judge youI mean, come on. A friend has tried to explain this to me in a gentle way, but I really can’t see it making any sense in the light of the Father’s Love that I personally know….

I cannot put it more plainly: the Believer has absolutely no reason to be scared of his/her Heavenly Father.

He means us nothing but good, and He looks on His children with nothing but favour. I’ve written before on the hopelessly and cripplingly incorrect doctrine of the ‘Angry God’, and I want to reiterate here that the Angry God is not the God Who loves us so much that He got down and dirty and came to save us – mainly from incorrect doctrines like that. The reason the Son of God appeared was to destroy the works of the evil one (1Jn3:8) – and the biggest work by far that the evil one has made is to create a horrible god after his own image, and then stick that label on my beautiful Heavenly Father, so that Jesus had to come in order to show us what God is really like! And sadly so many people believe in the Angry God nowadays that to try to present Him in His true nature is seen as heresy. So the ‘Fear of the Lord’ has, as usual, been twisted and used to misrepresent my Father’s character.

Right, less of the rant; I want to pass you over to Paul Ellis, a great writer who’s heavy on Grace (which suits me right down to the ground) for a superb article from his blog, on the correct meaning of the Fear of God. The article is presented below, quoted in full.

Brace yourself: this seriously could change your life. Enjoy!


What is the fear of the Lord?

This is an important question. You need to have a good answer to this question. Why? Because your answer reveals much about your faith and security. It reveals whether you are walking in grace or under condemnation.

For instance, if you think God is judging your behavior to see whether you merit his unmerited favor, you’re basically saying, “I don’t trust Jesus to finish what he started. Sure, I thank God for grace, but now I have to prove that I was a worthy investment.” Those who think like this fear God’s displeasure, and rightly so. After all, why would God be pleased with anyone who says, “I don’t trust Jesus”?

I’ve had people tell me, “I walk in the love and the fear of God,” by which they mean, “God is scary and will only accept me if I endure and overcome and obey and do all the other things the Bible says.” Or they say, “God qualifies me, but I can disqualify myself through sin, doubt, or insufficient repentance. A holy fear of a bookkeeping God keeps me on the straight and narrow.”

Statements like these sound pious but they’re faithless. They belie a confidence in the flesh that insults the spirit of grace.

This is not the time to get into all those great scriptures about abiding, endurance, and obedience – I’ll get to those later. For now, let me echo something John said: fear and love don’t mix:

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. (1 John 4:18)

If you fear the punishment or chastisement of God, then love has not had it’s perfect work in you. Look again to the cross. See the finished work. If God loved you and did all that for you while you were a sinner, what won’t he do for you now that you have come home? God is for you, not against you.

Of course, not every Christian is afraid of God. If you count yourself among the fearless, let me ask you this question: What is the fear of the Lord?

If you are like me, you’ll probably say, “To fear God is to worship him. It’s to give him the reverence and honor due his name.” This sort of fear has nothing to do with pain and punishment but is a proper response to a God who is holy, righteous, awesome, and good.

I’m not saying that God isn’t scary and that his enemies shouldn’t be afraid. But if you’re not his enemy then you have nothing to fear. (See Luke 12:32, Rom 8:15, and Rev 1:17 if you need proof.) If you know God as your heavenly father, then understand that the fear of Lord is not cowering before his smiting hand; it’s trembling before his eternal goodness.

Demonic fear would have you flee and beg the mountains to fall on top of you. But true, Biblical fear is where you fall in breathless adoration, marveling at God’s goodness and love.

“To fear God is to worship him”

Perhaps you’ve heard people say this, but do you know where this idea comes from? It comes from Jesus. Remember how he quoted scripture to silence the devil in the wilderness? Well let’s compare what Jesus said with the actual scripture he quoted. See if you can spot the difference:

What Jesus said: “It is written: ‘Worship the Lord your God, and serve him only.” (Mat 4:10)
The original text: “Fear the Lord your God and serve him only.” (Deu 6:13)

Did you spot the difference? Moses said, “Fear God,” which Jesus interpreted as, “Worship him.” Whenever you read an exhortation to “fear the Lord” in the Bible, you can rightly interpret it as “worship the Lord.” Jesus gives you permission.

“But Paul, ‘through the fear of the Lord, men depart from evil.’ It’s only the fear of punishment that stops people from sinning.”

That’s great advice when dealing with three-year olds – or stubborn Israelites. The fear of punishment can be a great motivator. It was used during the old covenant to keep people in line. Back then, if you didn’t keep the rules, you got whacked. This is why that covenant is known as a death-dealing ministry (2 Cor 3:7). Its purpose is to kill you – or at least kill your confidence in your own abilities so that you might see your need for Jesus (Gal 3:24).

But the good news is that in Christ you have died (Col 3:3). You don’t need to be killed any more. Your old self is in the grave. Now that you have been raised with Christ you are free to live fearlessly.

Fear and love don’t mix

Fear has no place in a healthy, loving relationship. It’s important that you get this. You can’t balance fear and love. They are like light and dark. You cannot have a part of your heart shouting, “I love you Lord” while another part whispers, “but I’m afraid of you.” Why not? Because you will never give yourself wholly to someone you’re afraid of.

Your heavenly Father loves you more than you know. It grieves him when you hold back because you are uncertain of his love. And it breaks his heart when you shrink back because you think he’s going to hit you. Maybe your natural father did that but your heavenly Father never will. He loves you so much he died for you and now he lives for you. He longs for you to receive his undiluted love.

Fear not

If you ever hear a sermon or a message that leaves you fearful and uncertain of the Father’s love, reject it! The words may be from the Bible, but the spirit behind it is not from the Lord. God has not given us a spirit of fear and intimidation (2 Tim 1:7). Rather, he has poured his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit (Rom 5:5). The Holy Spirit will always seek to remind you that you are God’s dearly loved child.

“Sure, Paul, I get that. I know God loves everyone.”

Not just everyone; He loves you. You need to make this personal. You need to see yourself as the apple of your Father’s eye.

I encourage you to get into the habit of agreeing with the Holy Spirit. Tell yourself every day, “God loves me and there’s nothing I can do to make him love me any more or any less.” And as the love of God roots and buds in your heart, it will drive out fear. The oft-repeated phrase “Fear not” will become real to you. You won’t fear failure, you won’t fear men, you won’t fear death, and you certainly won’t fear your loving Father.

Unbelievers fear, but the sons of God are fearless. The wicked flee when none pursue but the righteous are as bold as a lion.

But from everlasting to everlasting the Lord’s love is with those who fear him. (Psa 103:17)

Only those who are secure in the everlasting love of the Lord know what it is to truly fear the Lord.

It is to see him as he truly is and respond with awe-struck adoration.

It is to tremble in his presence knowing he is surely good, he is surely supreme, and he surely loves me.


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Blindsided by Grace!

For many years, I was a religious man. I won’t go into the details, but although I knew I was loved and accepted by God, indeed even that I am His child, still I felt that I had to add to my faith certain behaviours, certain rules and so on, that either proved that I was as Christian as I claimed to be, or that showed others my faith on the outside. Nowadays, I recognise this as part of a legalistic mindset. Over my fifteen-year ‘wilderness period‘ outside the Church, one of the main things I learned was that God’s favour is not dependent in any way on what I do or how I behave. His favour does not depend on me at all, but instead it depends entirely on Jesus. It depends not on what I have done, but on what Jesus has already done to reconcile us to God! And this is what is known as Grace – the unmerited, extravagant, undeserved, generous, wild and free favour of our God Who loves to give, give, give.

And the thing is that my religion blinded me to Grace. It was there all along, but I didn’t recognise how huge and important it was. To me, it was just a concept that I paid lip-service to; something that basically told me how unworthy I was to receive all that God had for me – despite being His child – and I just couldn’t see it! I effect, Grace was in my blind-spot, hence the title, ‘Blindsided by Grace!’

It was only as God revealed His Grace to me that it became clear – but when it did become clear, oh how thrilling! To realise that there’s nothing I have done, can do or ever will do that will change the way that God feels about me. Wow!

It’s interesting that although I thought I understood Grace and I did indeed acknowledge it that “…it is by Grace you have been saved through faith … not by works, so that no man may boast” (Eph 2:8), still I just didn’t ‘get’ it. But, thanks be to God, during my wilderness time He did lead me completely independently into the message of Grace, only for me to find  that while I had been ‘away’, He’d also been speaking to other believers all over the world on this subject and that now the message of Grace is being preached all round the world. What an affirmation that was!

Grace is the pure Gospel that God intended all along for us, in order for us to live full lives here on this Earth. Jesus’s prayer, ‘Your Kingdom come’ (Mt 6:10) finds its fulfillment in Grace, because those who know only Law rather than Grace, or a mixture of the two, will never know the fulness of the Kingdom freedom that comes only through Grace. You can’t have Grace and Law operating at the same time; the two are mutually exclusive and it does not work (Rom 11:6).

Be encouraged. Grace is there for the taking, indeed God is holding it out to you and saying, “Here! This is for you! Take it!”

The full acceptance of Grace means an end to struggling to please God, an end to worrying about your sinfulness, an end to having to explain yourself to others; it means total freedom to live life in all its fulness and in all the riches that God purposed for you in Christ. Everything that is in Christ is yours because you are in Him, and Grace enables you to avail yourself of Christ’s riches fully and freely like no legalism can ever accomplish. “…because as he is so also are we in this world” (1Jn4:17 (ESV) )

I can promise you that if you do indeed decide to take the offered gift of Grace, your life will never be the same again!


I’d also like to give you another perspective on Grace too. Christian writer Paul Ellis likens it to one of those 3D images that you stare at for ages without really seeing what’s there, then suddenly the image pops into view in startling clarity. I would like to recommend one of Paul’s articles on Grace, which you can reach by following this link. Alternatively, (and I am doing this as a standard procedure nowadays in case a website goes down in the future) here is the article in full:

 

How well did I understand grace before I understood grace?

Have you ever seen those Magic Eye 3D pictures that look random at first glance but then reveal a hidden picture? Maybe there’s a group of you looking and someone says, “Wow – look at that! It’s a ship!” Then another person sees it and now they’re both describing the picture to you. But try as you might you just can’t see it. They try to encourage you. “Look – it’s right there. It’s huge!” But still you can’t see it. You’re starting to think there’s no picture at all and they’re all deluded when suddenly, revelation comes and a ship appears! If you’re like me and you’re usually the last person to see these things, you’ll no doubt embarrass yourself at this point by shouting, “I see it!”

That’s how it was for me with grace.

I knew people who looked into the Bible and saw radical grace but I didn’t. Sure, there were pockets of grace but there was a whole lot of other stuff as well. Then one day, revelation came and I saw Grace! He’s right there on every page and in every book! How can you miss Him? He’s huge! I now find myself reading old scriptures with new eyes and saying, “Look! This is speaking of Jesus! This is all about Him – I never saw this before.” Now that I’ve seen Him once I see Him everywhere. I was saved decades ago and I have always loved God with my whole heart. But when I got this revelation of His amazing grace, it was like being born again, again.

A friend recently asked me, “How well did you understand grace before you understood grace?” Here’s my answer: I thought I understood grace perfectly well. For as long as I can remember I’ve considered myself a testimony of His grace. But when Grace Himself came into focus, I was floored. I realized that I had barely understood grace at all. Looking back I can identify nine signs that showed I did not fully grasp the grace of God.

1. I understood that I was saved by grace but not that I was kept by grace

I had received Christ by faith and without doing a thing, but I was not continuing in Him by that same faith (Col 2:6). Although I would never have said it, I had taken out a little works insurance. Faith is a positive response to what God has done, but I liked to initiate things. And so my walk became “do, do, do,” rather than it’s “done, done, done.” There was no rest, only performance anxiety. There was always another meeting to lead, another plank of truth to teach, another stray sheep to gather. I thought this was normal. I could get excited about the idea of being saved and saving others, but I was not drawing from the wells of salvation with joy (Is 12:3). I was constantly stressed and I treated grace as grease for my engine.

2. I felt obliged to serve

Jesus had done everything for me, what would I do for Him? Of course I didn’t use the word “indebted” – that would’ve alerted me to the poverty of my theology – but much of what I did was motivated by a sense of obligation. I thus cheapened the exceeding riches of His grace (Eph 1:7) by trying to pay Him back for His priceless gift. Inevitably this shifted my focus from Him and His work to me and mine. Instead of being impressed by what He had done, I was trying to impress Him with what I was doing.

3. I motivated others using carrots and sticks

Because my own motives were screwed up it was inevitable that I would preach rewards and punishments to others. Do good, get good; do bad, get bad. At the same time as I was preaching against legalism I was putting people under law! My gospel was like an ash-tray – full of “buts”! God loves you but… Jesus died for you but…  God’s gifts always came with a price to pay. But grace is free – you either receive it or reject it but the moment you start charging for it, you’ve missed it. There’s only one motive in the kingdom and that is love. The Son of Man didn’t come to threaten us, judge us, or scare us, but to demonstrate love (Rm 5:8). I no longer believe that evangelism means scaring the hell out of people. The good news that the world needs to hear is that God is good and He loves us. The new covenant of grace is the formal expression of His unfailing love for us (Is 54:10).

4. I saw myself as a servant rather than a son

My identity was in the things I did rather than in my Father. I saw myself as working for God (a noble cause!) rather than doing the works of God. I would not have said I was justified by what I did for I knew that grace and works don’t mix (Rms 11:6). Yet I was mixing grace with works like there was no tomorrow! But here’s the strange thing. Even though I preached servanthood more than sonship, whenever there was a crisis I was quick to relate to Him as Papa. It was only when I was strong and healthy that I was seduced by the religious need to do something for God. Happily, there were many crises!

5. I kept asking God to provide things that He’s already provided

I knew enough about grace to approach Him boldly in my hour of need, but I didn’t know that He has already given us everything we need for life and godliness (2 Pet 1:3). If someone was sick I would ask for healing when I should’ve just healed them (Mt 10:8). I would ask for more faith instead of living by the faith of the Son of God (Ga 2:20). Like the prodigal’s older brother I felt that God would bless me as I did my part. I didn’t realize that I was already blessed, deeply loved, and highly favored. In my ignorance I wasted a whole lot of time doing a whole lot of nothing. I thought I was being active and fruitful but in reality I was passive and faithless. God had already come but there I was face down asking Him to come again.

6. I was more sin-conscious than Christ-conscious

Like many Christians I was afraid of sin (keep it out of the camp!) and I was not known as a friend of sinners. I defined sin as bad works only and I taught that the solution to sin was repentance. I had read that the grace of God teaches us to say no to ungodliness (Tit 2:12), but I wasn’t quite sure how that worked. So when preaching against sin I used inferior incentives like fear and punishment that led, at best, to temporary, will-powered changes in behavior. I emphasized what people must do (repent!) more that what God has already done (forgiven us!). I kept the focus on us when it should’ve been on Him and my preaching was powerless as a result. If anyone failed to experience victory over sin, I just figured they were unacquainted with God’s transforming grace – even though I had given them none.

7. I always tried to do the right thing

Someone under grace says, “I trust Him from start to finish. He will lead me in the right path” (Ps 23:3). But in subtle ways I preferred rules to relationship. What I craved were clear Biblical guidelines for living. I thought I was choosing good, but then so did Adam. We both had an independent spirit that led us to eat from the wrong tree. I felt particularly good when people came to me for guidance. I thought I was giving them wisdom when really I should just have got out of the way and taught them to lean on Jesus (Jn 10:27).

8. I had a stronger relationship with the written word than with the Living Word

I did not read the scriptures to find Jesus (Lk 24:27) but to learn, what should I do? I read indiscriminately and was often confused by scriptures that seemed to contradict each other. My solution was to go for balance: A little of this, a little of that, for all scripture is profitable. But by failing to filter what I read through the finished work of the cross, I unwittingly poisoned myself. I was mixing the death-dealing words of the law with the life-giving words of grace. Although I was zealous for the Lord, in truth I was lukewarm. I was neither under the stone-cold reality of the law nor walking in the red-hot heat of His unconditional love and grace.

9. I knew I was righteous, but I didn’t feel righteous

When I stumbled I would more readily confess my sins to God than allow the Holy Spirit to remind me of the gift of His righteousness to me (Jn 16:10). I knew I was a new creation (2 Cor 5:17), but in many ways I acted and spoke as if I was merely an improved creation. I thought honesty about my struggles was the key to getting more grace. But I probably would not have struggled so much in the first place if I had just learned to see myself as God sees me – redeemed, righteous, and holy.

I am convinced that grace comes by revelation. If you don’t yet see it this post may sound like the ramblings of a man who is unbalanced. (Thank God I am! I’m done with balance!) If you do see Grace, then right now you will be resonating like a tuning fork. So let me finish with a few words for those of you in the first group. Please be patient with those of us who are leaping for joy. Don’t walk away from the Magic Eye picture scowling, “I can’t see it, there’s nothing there.” Just keep looking! Grace really is standing right there in front of you. And He’s huge!

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When Words Are Not Enough

Today’s post is a little different in that although I’m presenting yet another worship track, this time there’s an extra little something in the worship which we call ‘Singing in the Spirit’.

As my regular readers will know, I am a worship leader. I’m just one of many, many worship leaders all over the world who have God’s anointing to lead people into the Presence of God. Part of our anointing is to bring understanding to our congregations as to what worship can be like, and what sorts of worship are ‘out there’ that maybe people haven’t experienced yet. So, in this piece, I go into the way in which ‘singing in the Spirit’ is used in worship, and tell you a little of what it’s all about.

In the Bible, in 1 Corinthians chapters 12-14, Paul wrote that part of his letter to the Corinthian church because he was trying to introduce more intelligibility in worship. People had, in common with Christians all over the ancient world, received the spiritual gift (amongst other gifts) of ‘speaking in tongues’ (Acts 2:4; 1Cor 12:10) – actually I don’t like that term; I prefer to call it our ‘Spirit language’ – and they were using that gift in public worship – but that gift was getting out of control and wasn’t being used to build others up in their faith, which is really the whole point of meeting together in God’s Presence.

In 1Cor 14:15, St. Paul says this:

“So what shall I do? I will pray with my spirit, but I will also pray with my understanding; I will sing with my spirit, but I will also sing with my understanding”.

Here, Paul describes two ways of praying and singing: ‘with [his] spirit’, and ‘with [his] understanding’. This means that sometimes it’s our spirits that pray/sing, and sometimes it’s with our minds or ‘understanding’. It means that sometimes we say or sing things that are understandable, but sometimes our spirit says or sings things that are very deep down and therefore are hard to put into words. This, I believe, is where the Spirit gives us the words to say, using our ‘Spirit language’.

So if praying and singing (in this context, I’m assuming worship singing) with the understanding means that we understand what we are praying or singing, it will  therefore probably be songs in your native language, like hymns or simple worship songs. Paul is saying that, as well as singing or praying in our Spirit language – which is not intelligible to others – we should also pray and sing with our understanding – using words which are intelligible to others. But – and here’s the key – it’s not one or the other; it’s both.

And please be aware that it is perfectly possible to sing or pray ‘in the Spirit’ in your native language. In fact, ideally, all prayer and singing should be done in the Spirit, that is, under the influence of the Holy Spirit. It doesn’t have to be ‘in tongues’ to be in the Spirit! I’m not going to say that the gift of ‘tongues’ gives ‘deeper’ prayer or worship, because the two are complementary; you can have worship or prayer that is no less deep because it’s in your native language as well as prayer and worship that are in your Spirit language. The two work together. Singing or praying with the mind does not exclude the Holy Spirit; He inspires both.

So, I agree with Paul’s guidelines to the Corinthians, and they also provide a good framework for orderly, and yet still Spirit-led – worship in our time too.

But sometimes simply praying or singing in English, or whatever one’s native language is, is simply not enough. Sometimes there are thoughts and feelings we need to express that English simply can’t cope with. And so we use our Spirit language, in freedom, but also in consideration for others. Having said that, if everyone is singing in their Spirit language, then this is in keeping with the Scriptural guidelines* in 1 Cor 14 because everyone is doing it, and, most importantly, everyone is being edified – built up in their faith. In fact, I can think of no other worship experience that brings the people together so much as does a session of singing ‘in the Spirit’. It is beautiful, uplifting and upbuilding; people even get healed during these times, and who knows what amazing things we’re singing to God? The enemy certainly doesn’t!  Singing in Spirit language is a potent tool for both worship and spiritual warfare. It kicks the enemy’s butt even if that’s not your intention. And, most importantly, it blesses not only those singing, but also (and especially) the Lord Himself.

I’ll let you into a little secret here: when I’m in church, during the singing, if there’s a song I don’t like for any particular reason – maybe I don’t like the trite lyrics or for whatever other reason – I simply sing using my Spirit language. Nobody else can hear me because everyone else is singing too; it’s not important what I sing, the main point is I am lifting my heart to God in worship, and using the language He has given me in order to do this is a valid way to use the gift.

Let’s look at an example. Here’s a lovely worship video featuring the gifted worship leader, Terry MacAlmon**, as he leads a very receptive congregation in one of my favourite worship songs, ‘When I look into Your Holiness‘. Watch what happens from 4 minutes onwards:

The spontaneous singing from about 5 minutes in the video is a glorious example of ‘singing in the Spirit’, where the people are using their individual Spirit languages. That’s what it sounds like; it’s always different each time but this gives you the basic idea. It doesn’t always happen like it does in the video, sometimes it follows straight on from a song in English, sometimes is just rises up out of nowhere. The thing with learning to sing in your Spirit language is simply to not be embarrassed and just let go and trust God to give you the words to sing by the Spirit. The tune and the timing are also given by the Spirit. Sure, you could be forgiven for thinking that people are simply making it up, but I have seen this kind of worship countless times and in all cases it produces good fruit – joy, peace, love – and this is entirely Scriptural. This is of the Spirit.

You can also sing ‘in the Spirit’ in English too, once again trusting the Lord to provide the words, tune etc. An example of the public use of this gift is shown here.

In order to round off the subject today, I would say that the gift of ‘tongues’ is closely related to concepts in Romans 8:26-27 where Paul, writing on the subject of intercessory prayer (that is, praying for people, situations or things), says this:

In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s
people in accordance with the will of God”.

This means that that when we run out of words to say; when we can’t find the words; when sometimes mere words are not enough, then the Holy Spirit Himself steps in to pray for us – both actually praying for us and praying on our behalf – using inarticulate sounds, like groans and moans. Kind of as if even ‘tongues’ is not enough. I’ve found myself doing that quite a lot lately! We should not be surprised when, while we are trying to express the inexpressible either to or about an inexpressible God, we run out of words. And so the gift of ‘speaking in tongues’, in whatever role it is used, comes into its own; in fact, this is the main reason the gift is given – to express the inexpressible. Or even going beyond this into ‘groans’; both of these are valid forms of prayer, worship and intercession – in short, speaking with God.

You may be wondering how you too can receive the gift of your Spirit language – your own private prayer and worship language? It’s really quite simple. As a believer you have been ‘sealed’ with the Holy Spirit. He lives in you and gives you the life of God in your body (Rom 8:11; Jn 14:17). The gifts of the Spirit come as part of the package, as it were; they are already there, lying dormant inside you. So all you need to do is to ask God to awaken that gift in you and off you go. Find a quiet place by yourself, or maybe get someone to pray with you for the gift. For each of us, the experience is usually different from that of others; this comes as no surprise, for God is simply treating us all as individuals. There is no ‘normal’; no ‘stereotype’. Maybe begin by praising Him in English, and then just let yourself go. It’s really quite simple; to be honest the main hurdle most have to overcome is embarrassment. But don’t worry about that; just do it. And see what happens – and use the gift! The more you use the gift, the more comfortable you will become with it; practice, as with most things, does make perfect.

So, when words are not enough, use your gift!


*Note that here I am not advocating legalism in following ‘rules’, I am simply saying that, in certain cases such as this, consideration for others and the desire to build them up is in itself part of our worship. Worship that causes others to stumble is detrimental to those others. See my article on how not to cause others to stumble for more on this.

**This video is also a brilliant object-lesson in how to lead a congregation in worship under the leading of Holy Spirit. At about 4 minutes into the video, Terry doesn’t jump in with the next song; he doesn’t rush things or panic – you can see that he’s completely relaxed and focused on Jesus. And after about a minute of an ‘awesome silence’ (one where the people are simply looking to God in awe and wonder), the people spontaneously break out into singing in their Spirit languages. Terry’s just letting Holy Spirit have His way in the worship; he’s led the people to a position of awe and wonder and then he obviously feels the Spirit saying to him, ‘No more music just now, son, I’ll take it from here’. Notice how the people in the congregation are free to express themselves in their own way: some just sitting and listening, some sitting and singing or just raising hands, some standing up and giving it all they’ve got. And the way the dynamics work too – the volume changes, the ‘applause’, the harmonies, and then finally (interestingly, just as someone starts to go just a little outside the Spirit’s leading and starts to ‘squeal’ a little; this does happen sometimes!) Terry draws it to a close with a few gentle piano chords. Thoroughly relaxed, unpressurised, no ‘religious spirit’, pure worship. A lovely illustration of humans and God working together to produce lovely praise and worship to Jesus. This is worship leading at its best. Watch and learn, folks!