This is a gorgeous worship song by American singer/songwriter/worship leader Kari Jobe.
As always with the worship songs I present, just relax, close your eyes and worship. Should your hands want to raise up as you listen, don’t stop them 😉
Enjoy!
Worthy is the Lamb who was slain
Holy, holy is He
Sing a new song to Him who sits on
Heaven’s mercy seat
Worthy is the Lamb who was slain
Holy, holy is He
Sing a new song to Him who sits on
Heaven’s mercy seat
Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty
Who was and is and is to come
With all creation I sing praise to the King of kings
You are my everything and I will adore You
Clothed in rainbows of living color
Flashes of lightning, rolls of thunder
Blessing and honor strength and glory and power be
To You the only wise King
Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty
Who was and is and is to come
With all creation I sing praise to the King of kings
You are my everything and I will adore You
Filled with wonder awestruck wonder
At the mention of Your name
Jesus Your name is power, breath and living water
Such a marvelous mystery
Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty
Who was and is and is to come
With all creation I sing praise to the King of kings
You are my everything and I will adore You, I will adore You
– Kari Jobe
The chord vamp that forms the basic structure of the song is simply inspired. For those who might want to play it on guitar, the chords are D-Am-C-G and basically repeat. Remember it’s played on the dominant 5th rather than on the tonic, so the actual key signature is one sharp or ‘G’. Although, I personally prefer to play it in Gb (so, Db-Abm-B-Gb) as I feel it’s more atmospheric. Plus it makes me feel smug as it’s seen by some as a more ‘difficult’ key 😉
Finally, here is the same song, but performed live. Brilliant!
Continuing the theme of the Prodigal Son – if you have felt the touch of the Spirit of God calling you to Father God, then perhaps this is the song to sing. Don Francisco’s gentle ‘Prodigal Song’:
Here I am, just a poor man
Made poorer still by the knowledge of the riches I have squandered
Oh I’ve wandered – I stand convicted
Even knowing that the deepest of my wounds were mostly self-inflicted
Where did my heart go?
Where have I been?
You opened my eyes to the darkness and lies
And I shut them again
And I want to go home to my Father
I wanna be part of where my heart says I belong
I want to wash my weary soul in livin’ water
I’ve been away way too long – I wanna go home
Out on the boundaries of my freedom
I was looking for fences that would keep me in and I found there were none
Only your sweet love, Lord
Fool that I’ve been
You broke the chains of my heartache and pain
And I forged them again
And I want to go home to my Father
I wanna be part of where my heart says I belong
I want to wash my weary soul in livin’ water
I’ve been away way too long – I want to go home.
Lord Jesus, Lord, please help me, I’m so full of regret
It’s so hard to forgive myself, it’s harder to forget.
I need you to hold me and heal me
To mould me and steel me
By the power of your Word to be the son You’ve called me to be.
And I want to go home to my Father
I wanna be part of where my heart says I belong.
I want to wash my weary soul in livin’ water
I’ve been away way too long – I want to go home.
I’ve been away way too long – I want to go home.
The story of the Prodigal Son in Luke 15:11-22 is one of the most moving parables told by Jesus. Although many people see the story as the tale of a young man who goes wildly astray and has to come grovelling back to his father, in actuality the tale is about the welcoming, affirming, unfailing love of the Father. Jesus uses the parable to illustrate the longing of the Father to have His son back by His side again. The young man slides so far away from his Father only so that Jesus can illustrate that God longs for fellowship even with the most hopeless case.
It has been set to drama and to music. But this version is the best.
I present here the moving story song called ‘The Prodigal Son Suite’, by the late Keith Green, which contains probably the finest fast piano toccata in all of modern Christian music. I love playing this song on a grand piano – but it’s nothing like how Keith plays it!
Let this song minister God’s love to you, soak it up, live it and breathe it. Let it change you.
And if you’re interested, someone has even done a video play of the story too, to the same music:
And finally here are the lyrics:
I was dung hoeing out in the fields for the day
I was thinking of going, I had to leave right away
My life was just fading, and oh I felt so alone
The nearest young maiden was a full day’s ride from home
My father was reading the holy books in his room
My heart was just bleeding, I knew I had to go soon
He smiled and pointed to an old wooden chair
I wanted to hold him, but then I just wouldn’t dare
I said, Father, there’s so much to know
There’s a world of things to see
And I’m ready to go and make a life for myself
If you’ll give me what is mine
I will go, if I can have your blessing
But if you won’t bless my journey, I’m gonna leave anyway
Son, I’ve always tried my best for you
And if you must be leaving home, then go with the blessing of God
Not too many days later I was well on my way
I met a travelling stranger who seemed to have much to say
He told me tales of the city and all the women he’d had
I asked him wasn’t that sinful
He said, no, it isn’t that bad
And then a few days later, on an old city road
We were drowning in laughter, and we had women to hold
And this went on quite a long time, my father gave me a lot
But when my pockets were empty, my friends all left me to rot
Then a famine hit and drained the land
Everywhere I looked I saw starvation, and a job was so hard to find
I wandered through the city streets, competing for the food of common beggars
Until then I’d never known hunger, but now I wasn’t too proud
I finally found some employment, feeding pigs on a farm
I wasn’t treated to kindly though, I had to sleep in the barn
I had to eat with the swine
The bread I ate was like stone
It didn’t take too much time until I was dreaming of home
Oh, the servants there are better fed
If I could only have what my father gives them
I would truly need nothing more
Oh, I will go and say to him
I’m no longer worthy to be in your family
Will you take me as your servant, and let me live with them?
It didn’t take too long to pack my things
I left with only what I wore
As I prayed that I still had a home
I was near home in sight of the house
My father just stared, dropped open his mouth
He ran up the road, and fell to my feet, and cried, and cried
Father I’ve sinned, heaven the shame
I’m no longer worthy to wear your name
I’ve learned that my home is right where you are
Oh father, take me in
Bring the best robe, put it on my son!
Shoes for his feet, hurry, put them on!
This is my son who I thought had died
Prepare a feast for my son’s alive!
I’ve prayed and prayed, never heard a sound
My son was lost, oh thank you God he’s found!
My son was dead and he’s now alive!
Prepare a feast for my son’s alive!
My son was dead
My son was lost
My son’s returned in the hands of God!
In 1993, Hosanna! Music did a song by Dave Bankhead and Ray Goudie called ‘Great Awakening’. 22 years ago, this Great Awakening was longed for by most Christians in my circles, but it simply didn’t happen. But it is happening now, beginning with God speaking to the hearts of His people about His true nature and His love for the broken, hurting and outcasts. People like me and others I know are being changed by God to be able to see and accommodate this new wave of His Spirit.
Here’s the song – ‘Great Awakening’, by Dave Bankhead and Ray Goudie:
All down the ages, God has caused to happen many ‘Great Moves of God’, where the Christian faith undergoes great upheaval which results in huge blessings, healings, miracles and so on. These events happen periodically in God’s good timing, and many believers today feel that we are long overdue such a blessing. I have friends who pray constantly for such a move of God to happen in our time.
And I personally believe that there is another such move coming. Usually what happens is that God brings new revelation and blessing, but what He does and how He does it is completely unexpected – or nearly so. I believe that He reveals His plans in advance to those who are ready and willing to listen – ready and willing, because the move He brings is going to shake the foundations of what was previously thought to be known about God, and many will reject it as a move of the enemy. This is what happened in Jesus’s time – Jesus Himself was the new move of God, and the religious people of the day rejected Him – and even in modern times, it is no different, and it will be no different in that respect the next time either.
People who are so entrenched in procedure – based religious systems will either rail against the move of God, or they may even miss it entirely. Some will of course decry it as being ‘of the devil’, as if he has any say in what God does! (Remember that the devil is not the equal and opposite of God, he is a created being too just like we are, and as such is subject to the rule of God).
But the new thing is coming. Those who can feel it can see the stirring of the first few blades of grass moving in the wind of the Spirit. And you can guarantee that it will be nothing like most people expect. It will not be like the great revivals of the past. Because of the communications capability we have on the Internet, this one will be bigger than any before. There will be healings, miracles, people being raised from the dead, huge salvation, people being brought into the Kingdom – not a kingdom of rules and regulations, but of freedom and power. The powerless will be made powerful and mighty in God. They will realise anew, and indeed some for the first time, just what Jesus has done for us, and they will also realise the loving, calling nature of God as He seeks to draw all people to Him in His love.
This time, the emphasis will be on how much God actually likes us. In the past, there has been too much emphasis on the ‘angry god’ who is distant, cold, and just waiting for us to put a foot wrong so that he can judge us, condemn us, ‘smite’ us (whatever that means) and generally be horrible. As I’ve said in previous blog posts, that’s not the God I know. The God I know is the one exemplified by Jesus in His life and works. He’s loving, kindly, caring, tolerant, forgiving, healing – he’s friendly! People all over the world are even now being shown by Holy Spirit what is going to happen, and they are being primed, trained and set up to work alongside the Master, His Hands on theirs, as their attitudes change towards God’s intended direction for them and for the Awakening.
Maybe this looks prophetic; well maybe it is. Maybe God is showing us what He’s going to do, and it’s exciting stuff!
The harshness of modern-day religion and religious practices will be missing from the new revival, but it will of course try to resist it and brand it a ‘work of the enemy’ as we have already seen. It will be like nothing we have ever seen before. The main resistance, as in Jesus’s day, will be from those whose power structures, either in terms of money, prestige, reputation or control are threatened by the move of the Spirit. Those working in existing Christian practices may have to change the way they do things – but don’t worry, this is healthy if it’s of God.
I know there will be many people reading this that love Jesus and may well be frightened by this prospect. Maybe it will look like heresy; how do I know this is ‘safe’; how do I know it’s the Spirit that’s doing this and not a counterfeit? I would say that you need to rest in God. You need to lean right back into His arms and hear what He’s saying. You know His promises: He will never let go of you; underneath are His everlasting arms; His Spirit will lead you into all Truth. God will not lead you against your conscience, but He might just re-educate your conscience with His ideas. Please be open to that. Your process of being ‘transformed by the renewing of your mind’ never actually stops; you don’t ‘arrive’ at a place when the transformation is complete, not this side of the veil anyway. So, be open to God’s Spirit breathing His changes and His life into your spirit.
And we need to flow with the Spirit. In a previous post on this blog, ‘Learning the Lessons of History‘, I said that in order to allow the ‘next revival’ to continue, we must be careful to allow the Spirit to flow things along, not to make rules and frameworks in order to try to ‘preserve’ the blessing. That warning still stands – let the Spirit do what He wills!
So, get ready for the Great Awakening. It’s coming. And it’s going to be like nothing you’ve ever seen before!
See also my post on Don Francisco’s song ‘Vision of the Valley‘ for more on the kind of people that God will use in the upcoming Great Awakening.
The other thing is that you will most likely not hear about this on the standard news media. They tend to report only the bad news! But let’s wait and see….
I love walking with Jesus. He walk by me, speaks to me, guides me, comforts me and holds me up. Amongst other things… Walking with Him is the greatest and most unbelievably freeing thing that can happen to a person. We talk to each other in conversation, or we just walk in companionable silence. This is what walking in Him is like, for me at least.
Sometimes, though, it’s good to spend a more dedicated time with Him. To get alone with Him in a quiet place so that we can discuss things in more detail. Or simply to hear His voice more clearly without the hurly-burly of everyday life. It’s very much like going out on a date with my wife – a time for just us, without chores to do or other people to please.
Like how Jesus said to His friends in Mark 6:31, “Come away by yourselves to a secluded place and rest a while”
My beloved speaks and says to me: “Arise, my love, my beautiful one, and come away” – Song of Sol 2:10 (ESV)
Many believers practice a ‘quiet time’, in which they do just this; they retire to a secluded location – say a bedroom or study – and spend time just being with Jesus. The quiet time can consist of anything that the believer wants to bring to Jesus: worship, prayer, chatting, or just spending time sitting with Him. And such times are beautiful, sacred and blessed times.
Sadly, I’ve also heard of some people who see the quiet time as a ‘requirement’; a sacrament almost, and they have an almost legalistic approach. ‘Unless I have my quiet time’, they think, ‘God will not bless me’. Well, that’s not true. He meets with each of us in a different way according to our personalities, needs and predilections. There’s no need to be legalistic about something that’s supposed to be a joy; equally if the idea of ‘quiet time’ does not work for you, that’s no problem either! You and He, between you, will find a way in which you can bless each other in your own personal way.
So, if you love the quiet time, go for it; grab it with both hands. Don’t have any hangups about it, though, if you miss one! Really, it’s a decision for each believer and there’s no right or wrong way of doing these things. But I would recommend you try it. Relax and bask in His Presence. There doesn’t need to be any prayer requests, and conversation even. Just be there and see what He says to you.
What if you can’t find somewhere to ‘hide’ for your quiet time? What if you need His presence right away? I believe that each person has a ‘secret place’ within their own heart where Jesus lives by His Holy Spirit (cf. Mt 6:6). And I believe that this, with practice, can be accessed at any time. So, even in the midst of trouble, you can ascend the secret stairway into your Secret Place and commune with Jesus. This is going to be different for each believer, but in essence we are achieving the same thing. It’s finding the still, quiet place in the soul from which all your strength flows.
I hope this makes sense. It’s a bit deep, I admit, but it is really good to be able to do this. Ask Jesus for His instructions on how to do it!
Here are a couple of songs which may be of help.
Firstly, Don Francisco’s classic ‘Come Away’:
Come away, come away Into quiet and trust, come away Come away, come away In repentance and rest, come away
For the heavens are telling the glory of God The works of His hands teach His ways The night reveals knowledge we must understand His invisible nature, is explained through the days
Come away, come away, Into quiet and trust, come away Come away, come away, In repentance and rest, come away
For the Lord of creation is calling you now To a place where the thief has no key Where your Father gives treasure that can never be lost And the love of the Spirit of Grace sets you free
– Music and Lyrics by Don Francisco, used with his permission
And then the brilliant ‘Awesome in this Place’, led here by Kent Henry:
As I come into Your presence Past the gates of praise Into Your sanctuary Till we’re standing face to face
I look upon Your countenance I see the fullness of Your grace I can only bow down and say
You are awesome in this place, Mighty God You are awesome in this place, Abba Father; You are worthy of all praise To You our lives we raise You are awesome in this place, Mighty God
So, can I encourage you to think about generating the habit of spending time with Jesus. Walk with Him, yes of course, but take the time to be alone with Him too on occasion. Daily, weekly, every hour, whatever you would like to do. You may well find that you love these times so much that you want to do it more; alternatively, maybe you’ll realise it’s not really your thing. But just give it a go and see what happens!
A few years ago now, I quite accidentally discovered this song, and its writer/singer Ray Boltz, while looking for Don Francisco songs. I can’t listen to this song without weeping; this is true for only one other song, Into the West, performed by Annie Lennox. The anointing on the song (by ‘anointing’, I mean the evident seal of God’s approval; the added je ne sais quoi that He adds to things that He’s got His Hand in) – anyway the anointing is so strong that I just lose it every time. I’ll let you listen to the song (and the video is very good too) and then I’ll tell you a bit of a story.
You see, apart from its emotional effect on me, this song was also pivotal in my walk with God in another way.
This was the song that Holy Spirit used to bring me to my present place as an open affirmer of LGBTQ (lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender and queer/questioning) people .
I’d never heard of Ray Boltz before. But I was really impressed, as I’ve hinted, by the anointing on this song, and I wanted to learn more about him. Long story short, I discovered that Ray is gay.
At the time (this was about mid-2009) I was in my fifteen-year ‘wilderness period‘, and would be for another six years or so (it lasted from 1999-2014). Although God had already retrained much of my thinking with regard to theology, doctrine and practical faith, still the dislike (to put it mildly) of all things LGBTQ was a stronghold in my life. I am embarrassed to admit that I thought that gay people were way off-beam and deserved everything coming to them, as I saw it then. I cringe to write that, but that’s the honest truth. And I was wrong.
I had to wrestle with God on this. “If he’s gay [and therefore ‘wrong’]”, I put to God, “then why and how can you put such obvious anointing on his music?”
(Only recently, though, has my thinking changed on the issue of God’s anointing of ‘obviously wrong’ people – read about that here – but back then, this was a major issue for me)
God then led me on a journey of reading, research, study, prayer and contemplation wherein He eventually brought me round to His Heart on the issues surrounding LGBTQ people. I found that God loves them, God reaches out to the outcasts of society, He upholds the minorities and He lifts up the downtrodden. In each age, there are such people, and in our age one such ‘group’ is the LGBTQ ‘community’. He changed my heart towards these people by showing me His Heart; the natural thing for me to do was to follow His leading. I am too honest a man to deny the truths He gave me; too honest to ignore His prompting. I knew this was the way he wanted me to go. It fits right in with His love, His compassion, His gentleness and His forbearance. And, as you know from the subtitle of my blog, I always love to “do what I see the Father doing”.
And in the years since, I have found out that some of my old friends from Yorkshire (with whom I am still in touch) have also had to wrestle with these beliefs, especially one whose daughter has ‘come out’ as a Lesbian. I’m not on my own; God is challenging, and changing, the ‘firmly held’ beliefs of those who have ears to hear – many believers in this time are also coming round to this point of view.
This line of thinking also got me pondering very deeply on things like the nature of sin, the deadness of legalism and religion, and on many more things that now form a part of the way my theological thoughts now sit, and which you can see in my blog posts. And all because of that song, and Ray Boltz, the gay man who wrote it.
I now have several gay friends, some in real-life, and some who are ‘Internet friends’. And I have learned that they are good people – if you’d told the old ‘me’, ten years ago, that this would be my attitude, I would never have believed it could be possible. But thanks to God’s grace, and Ray Boltz’s song, my heart has been changed for good.
Thank You, Jesus!
For more help on faith and LGBTQ issues, check out my other blog posts here, here, here and here.
In 1991, the Christian musician Don Francisco published an album entitled ‘Vision of the Valley. The title track, ‘Vision of the Valley’ was a prophetic song depicting God’s feelings against the fake shepherds of the Christian Church; those interested in being leaders only for the money, the power and/or the prestige and social standing that the ‘job’ gave.
Now, almost a quarter-century later, I believe that this song is echoing what Father is doing in this time.
You see, for too long, many (but not all) churches all around the world have concentrated on god’s anger, judgement, ‘holiness’ (in this context, meaning his being ‘set apart’ from, or in other words allergic to, ‘sin’), rules and laws, and other unsavoury aspect of the character of ‘angry god’ portrayed especially in the Old Testament. Churches have been harsh and unbending, they have been unwelcoming to those that don’t fit in. The way they treat their members, at least those who deviate even slightly from the ‘normal’ behaviour, is reprehensible. They have persecuted the minorities – such as gay/lesbian/transgender people, they have rejected the widows and their children (divorcees and remarried people – see my article on this here) and they have shunned those who do not agree with them on absolutely every point of doctrine.
There are people bleeding and broken by ‘heavy shepherding’ – bullying, strong-personality leader types who make their congregation do things without question and order them around in God’s Name, and confront them with their ‘sins’, supposedly ‘in love’.
Love could not be further from these people. They are not being Christ to their people, nor to those outside. Is it any wonder, then, that the world looks in on the Church of today – whether that particular congregation is guilty of this or not; they are all tarred with the same brush by those outside – with contempt. This is the face of Religion – cold, hard, unbending, unmerciful. The Church, generally, is no longer seen as representing Christ to the world – the Christ Who turned the cold face of Religion on its head and redefined how people can relate to God…..
So what Father is doing is that there are many people around the world who do represent Jesus, and He is raising these people up and bringing them out into the limelight. People whom before we ‘…hadn’t noticed’. People in every walk of life who love Jesus and love others. People like me, who have recently ‘come out’ as an affirmer of Lesbian/gay/transgender people. People like good friends of mine, who have realised that the harshness of the Old Testament is not a true reflection of God’s nature, and that proper interpretation of Scripture is essential in determining doctrine, if indeed you even need doctrine as such, but in any event at least where that doctrine dictates how you treat others.
Jesus is in this day reaching out to those who need Him in their lives. The broken, the bleeding, those damaged by bullying religion, those bound up by archaic rules and laws that Jesus came to set us free from.
So, here’s the song – Vision of the Valley – by Don Francisco, used here with his permission:
The vision came unbidden, at an unexpected pass Where the winds of change blew colder Whippin’ snow that cut like glass But like an old man in regret For foolish sins and wasted youth The scene that lay before me Had no beauty save its truth
For the wind came down the mountains Never slow and never still And the sheep were scattered shepherdless, Alone across the hills They were prey to every beast that roamed, And entrapped by every curse And they stumbled in their sickness, In their weakness and their thirst
Below them in the valley, The polluted waters flowed Where the shepherds that were hirelings sat And argued what was owed And the ambitious and the abusive bragged And they boasted on their might And their profits from the slaughter Of the ones who could not fight
And the wind just kept on howling, As I cried, “Oh Lord, how long Will your people be the victims Of the ruthless, proud and strong?” And at once there came an answer In the quiet of my soul “The time has come for judgement And to make the wounded whole”
“For my heart is still a shepherd’s heart I know each one by name The ragged and the beautiful, The healthy and the lame And I myself will lead them out, And I’ll feed them on the best In pastures by still waters In a place of peace and rest
O, but woe unto the shepherds who abuse my sheep and kill With harshness and severity you’ve bent them to your will And today I am against you as I take them from your hand When the fire of judgement comes The stubble will not stand!”
Then darkness filled the valley And I saw it take up form Screaming winds and fire and lightning More than any earthly storm Where it passed were no survivors For the land was cleansed and bare But the streams flowed clear and purified And the grass grew green and fair
I saw a man come walking And his heart glowed like a flame All the sheep began to run to him, And he called each one by name He spoke to them in gentle words And he soothed their fearful minds And he healed the brokenhearted And the crippled, sick and blind Then many others like him, All with hearts that glowed the same That before I hadn’t noticed, From the farms and fields they came They weren’t famous, wise, or noble But they spoke a common word A word the flock could recognize And follow when they heard
They led them in green pastures, By still waters in the light Standing guard against the wolves And other creatures of the night Going out into the mountains In the darkness and the cold Bringing back the lost and wounded To the safety of the fold And the news went out around the world In every street and town That something wonderful was here, That heaven had come down And millions gave their hearts in trust That long had been betrayed And the bride at last was ready, And the trumpet call was made
And the news went out around the world In every street and town That something wonderful was here, That heaven had come down And millions gave their hearts in trust That long had been betrayed And the bride at last was ready, And the trumpet call was made
The ‘many others like Him’ are those people who, in this time, are spending time getting to know the Great Shepherd’s Heart, and then expressing that Heart to those around them. They are the ones who have forgotten their ability to judge others, and instead have decided to preach the Good News of the Kingdom either directly, or by the way they express the Love of Jesus in their lives.
Are you one of those people? Would you like to be one of those people? Maybe if you listen to ‘Vision’, your backbone feels like there’s electricity running down it right from that opening harp arpeggio right at the beginning of the song? Does your heart burn with the dual emotions of excitement of believing what God is doing today and the deep weeping for those so badly treated by those who should know better? Does your heart weep for those sheep, and long for them to be released into the freedom that Jesus bought for them? If any of these descriptions strike a chord with you, then the Spirit is indeed speaking this to your heart – so be encouraged! He will work this out for you if you ask Him.
What does this mean, then, for the ‘shepherds’? What is this ‘woe’ that the song speaks of, reflecting the passages in Ezekiel 34:2-10 and Jeremiah 23:1?
Quite simply, as people leave the churches of these people, they will be out of a job! Sure, their existing congregations might well stay the same size, since they will probably be made up of people who are equally hard and harsh. But as Holy Spirit works on the hard hearts of those people, and even on the leaders, they will come round to His way of thinking. And the Church will grow, but not the churches that are hardened, at least not with people who know their relationship with Jesus has saved them from the hell of a life lived on the streets without Him. They will form their own groups around those who go out and find them; in short, relationship will win over rules and organisation. Don’t forget that God loves even the harsh shepherds, and longs for them to realise their error and to come into the fulness of His Kingdom in this life. They are missing out on so much!
So, listen to the song again and again. Soak in it; hear its message, and if you are one of these hard-hearted people, then let the Spirit change you into the person you always wanted to be.
Edit: Here’s another version of the song, live by Don Francisco, in the 1989 UK ‘Vision of the Valley’ Tour. The keyboard player is Yorkshireman Dave Bainbridge, of the band ‘Iona’; I played piano at his baptism….
I’ve written in the past about how Holy Spirit brings life to the Scriptures and makes them real to the believer. Well, here’s a very personal testimony about a time that He did just that for me, and the revelation He gave has never left me.
On Remembrance Sunday, 9th November, 1980, about two months after I decided to follow Jesus, I was at my grandmother’s house in Guiseley (my home town in Yorkshire) and there was a remembrance service on in the background on the television.
The narrator was talking about all the young men who had given their lives in the service of their country; he then went on to compare that sacrifice with that of another young man who, two thousand years ago, said to the thief on the cross next to him, “Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise.” (Luke 23:43)
What happened next came as a tremendous shock; I had never experienced anything like it before and it took me completely by surprise. It was like a brilliant light had come on in my head. Suddenly I knew, beyond a shadow of doubt, that this was me on that cross next to Jesus. But in fact actually, it was more than that; it was closer than that: I was in Christ when He was crucified. And I knew, oh I really knew it.
In Galatians 2:20, it says, “I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me”
And in Romans 6:5-7 it says, “For if we have been united with him in a death like his, we will certainly also be united with him in a resurrection like his. For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body ruled by sin might be done away with, that we should no longer be slaves to sin – because anyone who has died has been set free from sin“.
These Scriptures suddenly became fully alive to me and fully real. Right there and then. Of course, with the tears streaming down my face, I had a bit of explaining to do for my poor Dad and grandmother who were there at the time. But the revelation – the revealing of the truth – was there.
For this reason, I have always been able to identify closely with the Don Francisco song ‘Too Small a Price’, where he describes the Crucifixion from the point of view of that thief on the cross. (Church tradition gives his name as St. Dismas, apparently the patron saint of prisoners and repentant thieves. I like that.)
I am very blessed to be able to say that I have ministered this song to people personally on a number of occasions, and indeed on one particularly memorable occasion, I was fighting the tears back for the whole song, the anointing and identification were that strong. Such is the power of that revelation in 1980 that it still carries the same anointing for me even now, half a lifetime later.
Here’s the song (Don singing, not me!) and its lyrics:
I awoke to hear the jailer turn the key and push the door “Get out here!” he shouted, but I stayed there on the floor Frozen in the terror that rose and filled my brain For I knew what they intended; I could not face the pain
Then soldiers came into the cell and they dragged me to the yard They threw me down before a cross and brought the whip down hard “Carry it!” they shouted as I struggled to my feet I put my shoulder under it and dragged it to the street
I stumbled through a wall of screams as they drove me through the gate It seemed that thousands lined the streets, their voices filled with hate Like a wolfpack in the night that moves in for the kill They closed the gap and followed us as we started up the hill
And it seemed I’d barely reached the top when they grabbed me from behind They threw the cross down under me and tied the ropes that bind The arms close to the beams as they nailed the feet and hands And they raised the cross up in the air and dropped it in its stand
Through a blur of pain I saw the cross there next to mine There were people all around it so I looked to read the sign It was nailed there up above His head so the world could see the news That the man who seemed so helpless there was the King of all the Jews
And the crowd that stood around His cross made jokes about His name They shouted, laughed and spat on Him so I joined in the game Then I said, “Hey, if you’re the King why don’t You get us down from here? But the taunt just sounded hollow, and it echoed in my ears
‘Cause He looked at me with eyes that seemed to reach into my heart They shone a light on all my lies and tore my life apart There was more that lay behind His gaze than simply blood and clay But knowing was too much for me; I had to look away
Then I chanced another look at Him, while He was looking down Where the soldiers who’d just crucified us drank there on the ground And although He spoke them quietly, somehow His words came through He said, “Father, please forgive them; they don’t know what they do.”
Then as if they’d heard Him speaking, the crowd began to roar Whipped to frenzy by the priests who urged them on to more But the worse the accusations now the plainer I could see The guilt of the accusers — not the One there next to me
Then the man upon the other cross began to curse and swear And his voice was filled with venom as he hurled it through the air All the horror that was in him, and had laid his life to waste Came out in every syllable he flung in Jesus’ face
Jesus only looked at him, but something rose inside of me In spite of all that watched us there, it couldn’t be denied Because His righteousness and innocence were shining bright and strong I just couldn’t keep my silence if that cursing still went on
I cried out, “Don’t you fear the wrath of God even at the end? You’ll curse us both into the pit — is that what you intend? We’re only getting what we’re due — we’ve sinned our whole lives long But don’t you talk to Him that way — He’s done nothing wrong! “
Then with all my courage, in a voice not quite my own I asked Him, “Lord, remember me when you come into your throne.” He answered me, and even then His love was undisguised He said, “Before the sun has set today, you’ll be with Me in Paradise.”
The shouts and curses did not stop even when the sunlight ceased But somehow in the midst of it my soul had been released And though the agony continued, it was still too small a price To be allowed to hear those words, and to die beside the Christ!
Then darkness changed to dawning And I heard the sound of voices The air was warm around me I stood beside a stream
And Abraham was speaking To the multitude before him Of the unfolding of the answer To our prayers and hopes and dreams
Then far across the chasm, Came a rumbling like the thunder And the Prince of Peace came shining From his mouth the power streamed
And the walls and towers crumbled And the gates of hell went under As thousands sang the victory “We have been redeemed!”
Jesus is the Lord of all! Jesus is the Lord of all! Jesus is the Lord of all! We have been redeemed!
Jesus is the Lord of all! Jesus is the Lord of all! Jesus is the Lord of all! We have been redeemed!
Joy! Joy! Joy! Joy!
Jesus is the Lord of all! Jesus is the Lord of all! Jesus is the Lord of all! We have been redeemed!
– Too Small a Price, by Don Francisco, published here with his kind permission. The version I have published here is the one from Don’s album ‘Live in the UK’, 1989. That particular track was recorded in Leeds City Hall; I was there 🙂
Today, I’m going to share a deeply personal testimony about what God has done in the lives of my family over the last eighteen months or so.
On 17th April 2014, I led public worship again for the first time in over fifteen years – the time of my Wilderness period was over. One of the key songs I brought that evening was ‘Have Your Way’, by Don Moen. A song in which the worshipper allows God to have His way; to fill the worshipper with His Spirit and to allow the Spirit to have His way in everything in the believer’s life. We sang that song from our hearts, meaning every word.
At that time, my lovely wife Fiona had just begun what was to be the second of sixteen months on chemotherapy. Treatment for what is usually a deadly illness, with extremely poor survival rates. We have gone through the fire, and we are still going through it. But thanks to a combination of prayer, God’s encouragement, special juice drinks, chemotherapy and a revolutionary new type of cancer treatment, my Fiona is still with us now and is more healthy than she has ever been. She has been given a break from chemotherapy because she is doing so well; the tumour has shrunk even more lately and there is no secondary cancer. Our Oncologist has said that Fiona has outlived all her expectations. We took the risk and allowed our amazing God to have His way. And He has indeed had His way! He’s spoken His word into our hearts and He’s had His way – with our faith, our lives, and the illness. In giving it to Him, He’s taken it on board Himself.
Sure, this could be seen as a scary time, without the ‘safety net’ of life-preserving chemotherapy. But we sang that song, that evening last year, for God to have His way. And over the following months, we had the most remarkable series of God encounters, ‘coincidences’ and blatant ‘mercy-moments’ that left no doubt in our minds that God was working in our lives, and having His way.
We don’t believe we are ‘tempting fate’ by writing this blog entry. God is bigger than Fate – and we have given Him permission to have His way. Superstition plays no part in Fiona’s healing!
And then the main theme of the meeting was the song ‘Healer’, by Kari Jobe. Brilliantly sung by my daughter (I hope to publish a video of us singing that song soon) and backed by me on the lovely grand piano, that song was the mainstay of the worship that evening on so many levels – personal, local, national and international.
But for us, it was the declaration into our lives that He’s our Healer; He’s Fiona’s Healer, He’s my Healer; He’s my family’s Healer. The evil of cancer damages more than just the patient herself. It has a huge concentric ripple effect where waves of horror and fear emanate out through the entire family.
But, you know what? God has used this terrible diagnosis to bring our family together, to bring healing to damaged relationships, to show forth His power and love and mercy, and He’s drawn closer to all of us in a way we’ve never experienced before.
As I’ve said, we’re still going through the fire. But Jesus spoke words to me last year that I hold in my heart as it’s His promise. And He spoke words to Fiona which we also hold in our hearts. Three specific words: two from two dear Christian friends; and one from the Lord Himself.
Words we’re going to stand on in faith, because we’ve given God permission to have His way. And because He’s our Healer – He’s said that, and we continue to declare it.
Praise God!
The beautiful mountain picture at the top of this page is in Wasdale, in the Lake District, UK. Fells from left to right: Yewbarrow; Kirk Fell (just visible behind Yewbarrow); Great Gable; Lingmell; Scafell Pike (just visible to the right of Lingmell).
A couple of months ago, I posted a link to the song ‘Oceans’. At the time, I commented that the song was profound; lately, I have increasingly come to realise just how profound, and indeed I am still hearing God’s Voice through it.
Here are the lyrics once again:
You call me out upon the waters The great unknown where feet may fail And there I find You in the mystery In oceans deep My faith will stand
And I will call upon Your name And keep my eyes above the waves When oceans rise My soul will rest in Your embrace For I am Yours and You are mine
Your grace abounds in deepest waters Your sovereign hand Will be my guide Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me You’ve never failed and You won’t start now
So I will call upon Your name And keep my eyes above the waves When oceans rise My soul will rest in Your embrace For I am Yours and You are mine
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders Let me walk upon the waters Wherever You would call me Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander And my faith will be made stronger In the presence of my Savior
I will call upon Your name Keep my eyes above the waves My soul will rest in Your embrace I am Yours and You are mine
(Oceans by Crocker, Houston & Ligthelm)
When we are completely out of our depth in life, when everything is too much, when fear and horror surround us, God is there. Where feet may fail and fear surrounds us, He’s never failed, and He won’t start now.
‘ Walking on the water’ is not simply something that St. Peter did 2,000 years ago on the Sea of Galilee. Figuratively, it’s something we all have to learn to do if we want to weather the storms that life throws at us. Granted, in our own strength, we can try to do this, and I’m not saying that it’s not humanly possible. But why not tap into the immense, unlimited reservoirs of God’s peace and grace as we navigate life’s storms? He walks right by us, holding us up.
How to do this? Keep your eyes on Jesus. Remember, it’s all about Jesus! He’s the One Who has already been there; He’s the One Who has borne all our burdens –Â allour burdens! in His Body on the Cross. He’s borne our sickness, our grief, our strife, everything (as prophesied in about 800BC in Isaiah 53:4ff) – all our burdens. Keep your eyes on Him, and you will walk on the water of the storms of life without going under.
And this bears fruit in your Christian walk. Let’s look at the lyrics again:
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders Let me walk upon the waters Wherever You would call me Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander And my faith will be made stronger In the presence of my Savior
Read that again and again. I can’t add anything to that lyric; I will let it speak for itself. This is why that musical passage is sung over and over in this rendition of the song. This is the core of the whole thing. Holy Spirit, lead us where our trust is without borders. Unlimited trust.
You only need trust like that when you are completely out of your depth. And that’s where you learn to trust Him completely – and that trust will not be in vain.
Here is the song again. Sit down, plug in your headphones, ignore the cheesy graphics (preferably by closing your eyes) and just soak. Let the Spirit of God soak your life with His security and His peace, no matter how deep are the waters He’s having you walk on at the moment.